I am opening up

I am still confused about God right now.
But there's an underlying stream of grace that is flowing through this explosion of a situation.
When I feel lonely for my family (and this is something I did not think of when the boy was going through his dad's illness - sometimes a spouse can only do so much and talking to your relative,, even a distant second cousin, is something you crave for)
When I feel lonely for my family, I get calls from second cousins I grew up with
When I crave food, the boy cooks me a stupendous 3 course Bengali meal
The M.L calls when I least expect her to and gives me such normality and humor
The A.D sends me link after links about so v. many leukemia sites to print to take to my sister.
My favorite so far has been the the Irked Mag site
The roomie and giggly friends offer to pay for my tickets as a wedding gift.
My blog friends, this group of amazing women, have sent me so much support.
I could not have asked for this much grace and I am humbled by it all.
Another thing that is helping is to know that there are others out there who are dealing with leukemia and families who have survived it.
And so I think the time has come for me to open the blog up.
I am ok with others knowing now.