I was feeling quite miserable today.
It's so illogical.
The boy comes back tomorrow from a week in Canada where he stayed with the M.L. So on top of talking to the M.L. nearly every day, & our regular daily emailing to each other, I was also getting anecdotal tidbits from the boy about her & the L.
I know that technically I shouldn't be feeling as if I am leaving my bff tomorrow but I am having a little bit of separation anxiety right now.
So weird.
sigh.
And then the A.D. told me how they are thinking of going back to Canada from where hails the A.D's boy.
And gawd.
I detest the neediness in me but really how can anybody live without best friends of forever? But I know that the boy & I have to be patient & can not immediately do what we most want to do.

I feel like curling up with a christie or watching really, really old movies from childhood or flying my mom here or moving to where all my friends & loved ones can be around each other (not in the same house, like an insane somebody told me once, but crisis distance away).

And then I retrieved this from my youtube favs & feel a wee bit better. Like everything will be ok. That all struggles will come out right. And all apprehensions and doubts will be cleared and we will see our way.

Because this year IS better than last year and we have many, many things to be joyful about!!!

Edited to add:

I've been feeling better & laughing ever since my brother sent me these two clips on skype to cheer me up.

What is it about movies you see when you are kids that stay funny forever? Ok, granted there's only one truly funny line in this scene for me but oh, how I remember us yelling out - Look man, I am no allavaladi (vagabound?), I am Pavaani, a real professional killer - at random when we were kids.



& the one below. Oh Tilakan - how can you say such dastardly funny lines with such a straight face



I do wish more old mal films had subtitles though.