I am sort of panicking here.
We have to put together some visa apps for ze country to the north of us & it's kind of stressing me out - the dotting the i & the crossing the T's!

I am also having tiny crisis dreams of staying at our Kottayam place for a month
I am getting v. frustrated because there are so many things I feel we need to do to make the place comfortable and liveable for my sis but my aunt who seems to have no clue, and neither do my cousins
I am always having an existential sort of crisis when I get to Kottayam.
I feel so disconnected to everything and everybody there.
It's like they live in another planet or something.
I'd like to move the TV to Annmol's room - can you get somebody to do that
'Oh mole, there are so many wires and so many connections to move - it's so much of a hassle'
Oh for frack's sake.

Can you make sure we have internet connection so she's not too bored?
'Oh mole, these things take too long'

UGH.

I have all this barely repressed anger in me about weird things like this. It's like I keep hitting the great family wall of denial
No we can't do that.
No, that's too hard.
No, those things are too hard.
UGH.

Ok forget it all - I am losing perspective - the most important thing is - my sister is doing so much better and is out of the hospital now!!!!
Hoorah!!!!