aarrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh

I feel like a cactus
I hate having to eat healthy - and all I want to do is WOLF down a bag of potato crisps and godiva .. no Ferrero Rocher...no Godiva chocolates .. maybe both - preferably at the same time. I have visions where I sit in front of the TV with a huge bag of chocolates & chips and then mix together into another huge bag and just open my gullet and dump them in.
Gross but that's what I want.
Also, At times I have insane cravings for white rice and yogurt and chicken curry - and the tangy, spicy goodness of it!
All this in the evenings/late nights - they are killing me!
I do perfectly well in the mornings and afternoons are spent at the gym but the evenings/late nights kill me!
These are the thoughts that run through my mind & its just making me all annoyed and irritable and snappish.
Yes, the meals I eat are lovely, and yummy and I am perfectly full. But I feel like I have my own personal screwtape who keeps whispering - go on now, buy that lovely tart, make that lovely bread pudding.
Salt & sugar - that's all my body wants.
Add to that the fact that its time of the bloody month - and the boy needs protection gear to be with me.
I am canceling my F&W subscription which I really should have fracking down a million eons ago, scheduling my gym sessions at night so that I can fight the cravings and hoping that I'll be too exhausted after it to crave and just plop straight on to the bed and fall asleep.

A big also - my wedding venue coordinator is leaving and I am anxious as heck to get details straightened out with the new person.
I think I shall be fine once my meeting with her is over.

Boy: Just relax. Why do all these things bother you so much during this time of the month?
Me gives WITHERING LOOk & Boy shuts up.

If I had one wish, I wish Boy would experience the here and there, up and down, to and fro, happy and sad weirdness of mood swings associated with PMS.
Just once would be enough.


Aaaaahh - I feel so much more serene now. good vent. good vent.