Bi-polar, really??
The other day, somebody who knew me superficially suggested I could be suffering from bi-polar disorder and it ticked me off.
I admit I experience varying degrees of depression and my quota of mood swings.
But bi-polar disorder - give me a fracking break!
Ok - i did go online and do a clinical depression test because I suspect I could have some sort of depression but barely a register on that test.
I do think I need a therapist sometimes because I need to talk it out and most of my friends are so far away, even the red head moving to Chicago and the friends I have now are the ones that I can't really unburden my zingzags too.
So, when superficial friends who don't know what I am really, really really, deep down inside going through tell me that I seem depressed one day and ok the next, and maybe I have bi-polar whatever, I think to myself - well, maybe it's because I have problems that I don't feel comfortable sharing with you.
I know i am not even making sense in this post but somewhere in the spew of words, there was a point
I will be extremely surprised if I do have bi-polar disorder.
i AM however, going through a rough patch that will get better - I KNOW!
And sometimes, i get kind of tired of looking at the bright side of things - because really, God = why can't you just make all sides bright so I don't really have to search for the bright side of things????
Things to do today:
Go to work - blech.
Go to work and attending weekly meeting with boss.
Renew my car registration
Sign my new contract (woooHooOOOoooo) and send it off
I am realizing more and more that maybe, really, I just don't like working. I would rather be at home.
I do definitely want my car and be able to move around buT i suspect I am tired of working. Seven years of having a job and I think now, I just want to do my own thing and not work.
Maybe, I am just lazy
I admit I experience varying degrees of depression and my quota of mood swings.
But bi-polar disorder - give me a fracking break!
Ok - i did go online and do a clinical depression test because I suspect I could have some sort of depression but barely a register on that test.
I do think I need a therapist sometimes because I need to talk it out and most of my friends are so far away, even the red head moving to Chicago and the friends I have now are the ones that I can't really unburden my zingzags too.
So, when superficial friends who don't know what I am really, really really, deep down inside going through tell me that I seem depressed one day and ok the next, and maybe I have bi-polar whatever, I think to myself - well, maybe it's because I have problems that I don't feel comfortable sharing with you.
I know i am not even making sense in this post but somewhere in the spew of words, there was a point
I will be extremely surprised if I do have bi-polar disorder.
i AM however, going through a rough patch that will get better - I KNOW!
And sometimes, i get kind of tired of looking at the bright side of things - because really, God = why can't you just make all sides bright so I don't really have to search for the bright side of things????
Things to do today:
Go to work - blech.
Go to work and attending weekly meeting with boss.
Renew my car registration
Sign my new contract (woooHooOOOoooo) and send it off
I am realizing more and more that maybe, really, I just don't like working. I would rather be at home.
I do definitely want my car and be able to move around buT i suspect I am tired of working. Seven years of having a job and I think now, I just want to do my own thing and not work.
Maybe, I am just lazy
4 comments:
that friend has a bit of nerve, but maybe they are just looking out for you. anyways, everyone has their up and down days so don't let them bother you when you know they don't understand.
yup...totally feel u
Are you kidding me? A little depressed - maybe. Bi-polar - I doubt it. I think a therapist would be an excellent idea. With the kind of stress you've been under with crazy work and crazy wedding stuff/long-distance romance, I'd be totally SHOCKED if you weren't a little depressed. You need someone you can talk to who isn't involved and can look at your situation objectively. THAT advice or just that listening ear would be worth it. I put my son in therapy and told him he could tell the therapist anything he wanted to - even stuff he didn't want to tell me or daddy. It's done him a world of good - it would probably do you good too.
I'd buy it if maybe you were screaming at the trees in the front yard while wearing nothing but your underwear.... LOL
Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) hits a LOT of people during the winter. Crappy gray days + a stressful life can throw anyone into and up-and-down depression.
My doc recommended trying to get at least 15 minutes a day in the sun when possible and to keep up on my multivitamins. It has seemed to help me quite a bit!
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