OMG

its 1:30 in the am.
and I all I want to do is to be able to go inside the boy's brain and erase his memory of the last conversation he had with me.
that
or , be able to go back in time and be able to have been more reasonable in the last conversation we had and not have yelled and fouled so much
or
go inside my brain and rectify the overreacting part of me
or really,
just be able to wake the boy up and tell him how v.v.v.ashamed I am.