Sometimes all you need is a good weep
It has been a weepy sort of day.
Not in the 'o lord how my life sucks' but in the 'how great art life' sort of way.
I had a bridal shower to go to which sweetguycolleague came round to make sure I go for, even though bride in question is just another colleague, simply because he wanted to make sure bride in question had friends show up. How kind are some people!
The Sopranos ended.
yes. It is a show. But the show bonded the boy and I. And we are on the other side of that time in our life.
Knowing we prevailed when it was more tough made me smile through weeping.
David Chase
because no matter how heartbreaking it is to say this, i will never be able bring life to someone so tortuously tormented as Tony. And the sheer wonder that there are others out there who can create such worlds with words astounds and whelms me.
He won the Talent show across the pond.
The Attila showed me him and he makes her cry.
Grand talent under such self-effacing wonder of face
I cut ties to online social network
There were so many people there that I shared lovely memories with but what they are today is so vastly different from the memory in my head.
i wish them well but our lives are so disconnected from each other today.
And the need to reconnect so minimal that there are no qualms about cutting ties.
The difference in 'friend of the world me' from back then and mature Me from now makes me cry out in relief.
It is the most exhausting thing in the world to try and have/sustain relationships with people you like but have no connection with, simply because you can't bear that there is somebody out there who doesn't know or like you.
Drove to pick roomie up from airport. And the Fleetwood Mac played. And remembered drunken weekend in beach house in indiancollegefromlongago when it was playing and utter despondency I felt about not knowing what I wanted to do or where I was going with life and silently crying over it and FFs SharT and J.A trying to console me.
And realizing that today, though I do not overly love what I do to earn daily bread, I know what I want to do with life, in most parts.
And felt grateful to the one up there for paths traveled to come to conclusions. And for friends who stoodn'stand by you back then and now.
So finally now, am all ready to face tomorrow.
6 comments:
A good cry can be really, really satisfying.
Heheh...exactly :) Sometimes tears can be for happiness as well as pain...so let them flow :)
oh i so get you about not having to be friends with everyone
I have three non-family friends. I see them sporadically (one I haven't seen in years, but we exchange emails). Somehow it's easier to deal with that smaller number.
Re your comment on my blog - I have dealt mostly with St. Louis but we may have bumped phone lines a time or two!
OH! I have been totally following Paul on YouTube and LOVE him. I hope he always keeps the humble side because it's SO endearing.
I choose to believe Tony died. When he was having the flashback of his birthday in the boat with Bobby there was talk that death and Bobby said he thinks everything just goes to black. Brilliant.
I never joined any of the social-networks (except the blogs) because I figured I already keep in touch with those I want to keep in touch with. Right?
I'm not too much of an opera person... But even i could see that guy was awesome!
A good weep does a lot of good for the soul they say...
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