rolling stone

i am really happy in my relationship but I am miserable that i am unemployed.
it's been 2 months now and i have done all that i want to do - i feel like all the stored potential i have is being slowly seeped out, kind of like my eggs (huh, what brought that thought up?) and i don't know where to go next.
i am not sure if I even want a job in corporate communications, even if i do get one what with my visa and all. after 4 years of it, i am bored of it all.
i don't seem to know what the point of the job was now.
i did interview for a business analyst position which might be more challenging, i suppose. Lots of new things to learn and get acclimatized to. so that might be something to look forward but not quite.
Because in the end, i have a fear that really it's not going to benefit anybody and I do have a desire to find something that will be for a larger cause than just the larger corporate cause - but i do want to get paid for it. Volunteering i am learning does not bring out the best or even the mediocre in me. it just brings out the blahs.
it seems vague to say that I want to do something more meaningful with my life - what does that even mean?
I have a notion I still want to work for NPR but as what?
i have no clue
uhmm...
I am finally making peace with the idea that I will always be on the search for new careers, and may only be really happy with one career for a certain amount of time.
atleast i'll gather no moss, eh?