The one issue I have been obsessed about lately is my employment.
I am finding it most difficult to find the kind of job I want.
I do have one but it involves investing way too much energy than I am willing to give
I want to invest that energy into home and hearth... yES, i'd like to dip my toe into that domesticated pool.
If I was in India or in Dubai, this would be a non-issue. Because there I would have a cook, a maid and the whole of the family around to provide the support I need.
But I can't see myself doing the bohemian arts and crafts thing, volunteering thing and raising children the way I want to (and golly, I have so many ideas on it) and investing energy in the job front.
inside of me, the only reason I like being employed is because I can have my own circle of peoples to hang out with
and be able to afford the lifestyle with the attached luxuries we want - I get no personal fulfillment or joy from the job. Infact, I can quite confidently say I am yet to find that kind of fulfillment in anything I do, except for planning the wedding.
Ideally, I'd like a part time job - and most of it, is because I am bone lazy.
or even a teaching position - because I loved standing in front of kids and talking...anything where I am paid attention and I can talk is fine by me.
So the question that rages within me is if I am veering toward unemployment because I am lazy or because of some altruistic motive of taking care of home, hearth and baby minions?
I am not sure.
And of course, unemployment means not being able to do or buy quite as many things as we are able to do now.
Basically, to brief it all up, my internal debate is one between laziness and materialism.
Which one can I do without? uhmm....
3 comments:
congrats on your impending nuptials. i understand the feeling you are going through. having experienced something like this myself. i have found myself being unmotivated to stay in a reasonably paying job and quitting to start on my own. but it did not work out mainly because i did not plan for it and was particularly risk averse. the main reason it did not work was that i had a loving husband who would support me emotionally and financially. this gives you a comfort zone which is hard to get out of.
recently having gone back into employment (quite interesting and motivating), i must say that it is better to be occupied in a not so great job rather than quitting it all together.
of course if you have a good plan about what you would like to do and try, then it is worth taking a small sabbatical to try out these things.
I am enjoying the way you are planning for your wedding. lots of attention to detail. good luck
meera
My god and it's like looking at my blog!
Perhaps you could work at a museum or aquarium of some sort... It would be something new, involving children, and possibly more fulfilling in a universal sense than doing something just to make money.
I discovered, after I had my son, that I am NOT cut out to be a stay-at-home mom. Went plum stir crazy.
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