Had to get this out
No, I am sorry about having made you book your tickets but the visa thing wasn't something I conjured up to ruin your year.
No, I do feel guilty.
No, I do love my family.
No, I do try to be organized but sometimes crap happens.
No, I don't know what you mean by 'settled yet'.
No, we are NOT going to have a quickie wedding because 'people will talk'.
No, I have dreamt too much about a wedding to let the dream go.
No, I am not ok but that's life - ups and downs, stop pretending like you've are surprised that life is bumpy.
No, I don't know what's happening in your life because you don't email/phone/IM. But if that's the kind of friends we are, I'll go that route. But please don't give me the 'you are the only friend I email once in six months'. No connection can sustain such bad effort. Especially one that was so new in the first place.
No, we have moved on.
No, I don't want YOU to pray for me. Your prayers kind of stink of condescension.
No, I am blessed because I have people who care for me and who I care about so v.deeply, like siblings and parents who are related, BFFs and FFs who are not (shout out to M.L, J.A, JSM, TTK, SJ, AD, RP, the redhead), boy who will be, silent ones who I know love me (SJ, EA, RJD), and blog friends who are friends but not but so kinda are.
No, Maybe I am depressed but I will be ok because resilience is so me.
No, YOU don't understand what I am going through.
No, I am done apologising.
No, I am not praying for somebody else to come by.
No, I am NOT a good girl.
No, I didn't change because I came here. I always had another side in me.
No, I used to drink in Madras too.
No, I am fine with you judging me because I do judge you too for never living outside the dotted lines.
No, I AM the 'fast type'.
No, I really don't wish I was more like your kids who got married to malayalee christians even though they were raised here.
No, I hope my father will not have another heart attack over this.
No, I am not going to do anything I'll regret because I am breaking my grandparents' hearts.
No, I and we were always different.
No, I have no regrets about my life
No, I know I am being selfish
Yes, I have made mistakes but thank the Glorious God, I have, am and will always be living it my way!
12 comments:
Oh me,
Our people!
I could swear.
What the uck, am going to.
(swears long and loud)
HUGS to you.
Love,
your kinda right now, someday gonna be real, blog friend.
As your kinda-but not so much-but still very kinda-friend, I wish I could bash all the people said this stupid things to you.
Oh babe...
Logo ka kaam hai kehna....
People will say crap and only a few will know the reality. YOU know what is right for YOU. Another thing...why is that our kind must resort to emotional blackmail to get what they want?? Every time!!
Wow - I wish I'd actually heard you say this!!! So many times I've bitten my tongue when almost exactly that kind of stuff wanted to come out.
Me? I'd say it in the most sarcastic, sneering, superior way possible. If I actually said it.
Who the hell is saying this to you?? My gosh you're only waiting until things are more settled to marry the man you love...you're not fracking working in a strip club. (Or are you? OMG are you pole dancing??!)
(HUGS)
OOOOF ignore ignore ignore..
"Yes,I have made mistakes but thank the Glorious God, I have, am and will always be living it my way!"
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!
Its incredible how unforgiving our community can be sometimes!
to me what i just cannot understand about our community is how everyone feels they have a right, in fact MUST interfere in everyone else's life!
its good you got it all out!!!!!
It is actually quite simple:
There is one thing that you've gotta know, 'cos the years flash by in an instant, and you wonder what he's waiting for, then some skinny bitch walks by in some hot pants, and he's running out the door...
H-1B visa is not the only way to remain in the US. Your boyfriend can get sponsored by his company for a greencard. Premium labor takes about 15 days. File for I140+I485 together and the EAD card should arrive in about 90 days.
Thanks all!
And Mint - pole dancing only occasionally. I promise.
5 yrs is a long time. I speak from experience. What is worth more to you?
Love or Commitment?
Why are you putting yourself through this drama?!! I have had this conversation a million times with myself and my girlfriends.
Good luck.
Kanch
ps. i really like your blog!
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