Was
going to post so many very stories of:
- how the boy was propped, positioned and pressured to pose for lovely photos adorning social networks
- how we went out for, as boy calls it, the bad'n'expensive-in-tiny-portions-in-b plates-food as opposed to the goodthoughexpensivetinyportionsinbigplate's food
- the one fight that we had that ended with me coming to acceptance stage of grief over now almost aborted for this year (unless theres a miracle) wedding, but which fight didnot include: name calling, yelling or illogical behaviour (on my part - hoorah progress for me) and withdrawal (on his - hoorah progress for him) because of yelling, name calling, illogical behaviour, because, as newlydiscoveredafter15yearsBFF J.T put it, I 'need to be supportive to boy's genetic compulsion to be Provider' and because really, much as I hate to admit it, I WANT the fabulous n' classy wedding and may not really, deep down in the core of my heart, be happy with anything else
- meeting his new friends and their girlfriends/boyfriends, all of whom thought I was just plain fabulous (hello - of coursE)
- all the silly stuff that amounted to plain joy of being with each other - the good parts and the bad.
AM
crabby, poopy, doing a little wallowing in self pity pool, and v.def all un-ed out.
8 comments:
Aah..that's ok ME, u will come out of being crabby soon :-)
PS: I am finding it a wee lil difficult to read all those compound words in there!! Esp bullet no. 3!!!
Here's a smile for you, ME.
@everyman
:-) hee hee is it dictionary.com for you again?
Hehe...awww HUGGGZ to you. At least you can say that you were mature about it the next time it comes up :P
Hang in there :)
Wallow, wallowing for a while is healthy ! This too shall pass !! Till then , *hugs* !!
poopy?
"but which fight didnot include: name calling, yelling or illogical behaviour (on my part - hoorah progress for me) and withdrawal (on his - hoorah progress for him"
loved this line. i think it is true for nearly all my fights!!
Like the bit where everyone thinks you are FABULOUS! Sometimes you need to fight it out to figure it out. When wedding happens it will be big/ small classy/ jangly, all that YOU want it - of this I am sure...
Get married when you're ready, when you can have the kind of wedding you want. If it's the big, fabulous, classy wedding - you'll have to wait, but it will be worth it if it's what you truly want.
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