Wedding Planning

Its been a week and a month since I did any wedding planing. and NOw i need to start again.

This is the part where all my enthusiasm at the the celebration of our love vanishes and gets replaced by tremendous, overwhelming anxiety.

Cold, hard facts:
we are 10 months away from the wedding and:

1. WE have not chosen or signed a place to hold the wedding thing.
2. I do not have a manthrakodi sari
   
3. I do not have any gold (though I feel that will be taken care of by the mother)
4. We are still undecided about the caterers or even what type of food we want to serve (the boy wants roast chicken and an Indian/Western fusion. I don't care as long as everything looks elegant and glam.)
5. The sample wedding invitations I ordered look like rubbish and are not as unique and classy as on website
6. I need to find another cake lady because the one I had decided on, now says she can only do buttercream and chocolate, which is ok I guess but I hate having limited choices
7. The boy refuses to have a first dance at reception because dancing in front of his parents and relatives would be "deathly embarrassing"
8. I am still big as Monique and though the trainer and colleagues tell me I am putting on muscle and muscle weighs more and yada yada yada, I feel and look no different
   

On the flip side,

1. My matron of honour, the very cool and lovely M.L, has been a goldmine of information and has shown me many a trick to get through this stage.
2. M.L. - I wish you were here and not in far away cold land.
3. The boy, though far away, has calmed me down and helped salvage relationship with my "seemingly in my mind lax and unsupportive but in reality differently caring, undelegated to" bridesmaid.
   
4. The boy, for all his eccentric gift buying habits, told me yesterday that he loved me irrespective of what I think I look like.